The Wolf Moon is A round!

On the Eve of a Birthday….on a FullMoon. Truth be told…I wasn’t going to blog. Breaking my sort of vow to blog at least once a month especially on a Full Moon…but! Here I Be.

My mind is blank. As if 2020, THE year of COVID-19, has caught up to me and my mind is….spent. I was so ready, tho. Ready to pick up where I said I left off. But, no!

Which brings me to my Eve of a Birthday…..yikes!

Just last year around this time I was working, was thinner, healthier. Finally. Not the case this year. I suppose I am on some sort of auto pilot. How to break this rut…..?

Well. I go back to before 1995. A few years further.

My Father.

He had this sort of tradition/ritual that started a few days after a New Year and before my birthday of January 29th that I came to learn before my Pa died. In 1995.

He told me that he goes on a type of Fasting. A sort of sacrifice. Almost like Fat Tuesday before Ash Wednesday/ 40 days of Lent kind of a thing. YOU SEE….I, was born, or being born in a Breach position that endangered My mother and I. A Sort of life or death situation, actually I did die sort of, but, didn’t. Surprise, right?! Ok, so my father was told that, and made a deal with GOD. He said that the deal was that he would fast, give up, sacrifice, show his gratitude to God if We both survived. We both did. And, my father kept his part of the deal. Every year, around this time….for 25 years. He said it gave him some clarity. peace. A re-boot. A clean slate.

Through the years from 1996 to present I in a way continue his Deal with God. One way or another. Be it prepping for “Imbolc”, “Fat Tuesday/ Ash Wednesday” , and yes, my version of Lent….did I mention I was raised…Catholic? With Pagan/ Witchy tendencies, of course.

Anyway…Hence, blogging.

Thanks, Dad! For the reminder. I needed it. For tomorrow…January 29th 2021 is my Birthday. I will continue your deal until I am no longer here as well. And, I will find clarity, peace, and re-boot and start a clean slate.

Until the next Full Moon!